west side story, wittering, love

Watching West Side Story - it's odd how slow it feels! Makes me realise quite how crap my attention span is. Also, Tony's teeth haven't got any less weirdly large since I last watched it. Hmm. Might steal a cigarette from Lizzie and sit outside for a sec while typing...

Oh, have got sucked in after all. Maria is still wonderful. Also, the dances are just way cooler. Definitely less jumping up and down on the spot, fewer stumbling and vomiting people and more actual ability to dance. Still a shame about Tony though. Still, Romeo's basically a bit of a twat, so I suppose it adds up. Also, he's currently singing Maria, which he is very good at. Such a beautiful song.

Ahh, just had 'I want to be in America'. So amazing. Incredible dancing, brilliant lyrics - something about it always makes me want to cry - maybe because I can't imagine ever managing to dance with such unselfconscious joy unless drunk.

Onto the more boring balcony scene now with toothy Tony being a wuss, so I'll update you. I finally texted nice Jamesman back... oh, got distracted again. They look so in love. I remember doing that staring thing with Fish, where I couldn't quite believe he was real, and loved me. I wonder if I'll ever get to the point where the idea of him looking at someone else like that doesn't make me want to be sick.

On the good side, Officer Krupkee is starting. I used to know every single verse to this, and play it on the piano. No wonder I wasn't a cool child. Anyway, so I finally texted him back, but I left it a week and he'd texted twice. He hasn't replied now, which is fair, but sort of a shame as I think I'd decided I quite wanted to see him again and check whether the sex would be better. Never mind, considering it was my first proper venture, I reckon it could have gone worse. Suppose now I should try meeting some other ones, since it was actually quite fun. In the meantime, I'll just carry on watching West Side Story. Had forgotten how evil the lieutenant is. Hmm. Wonder if 'in lieu' is related to 'lieutenant'. Huh, yes it does (thanks Wikipedia) "The word lieutenant derives from French; the lieu meaning "place" as in a position (cf. in lieu of); and tenant meaning "holding" as in "holding a position"; thus a "lieutenant" is somebody who holds a superior's position in his or her absence (compare the Latin locum tenens). "  It's probably time to stop writing this now, as that was definitely a low point...

Snuggled on the sofa under my coat, trying to ignore the fact that I'm going out soon. I am sore and tired and a little cold, and have switched the channel to David Attenburgh for comfort. Unfortunately the first sentence since the switch is 'Soon, she will be burnt alive.' Today has been confusing. I had sex last night for the first time since Fish. It wasn't very good, which was rather a disappointment, but at least I've done it, I suppose. Then went with Lucy on a day trip out of London, to Aylesbury, which was rather a weird destination but a lovely pub and nice to be out. I feel quite weird. Sad, but think it's just tiredness. The guy is called James and is cute, though cuter (it must be said) after quite a bit of wine. Still, was a lovely date (we met at our houseparty last week) to the  AMAZING Pyjama Men and he is very sweet and quite interesting. Basically, I'm glad I did it but really wish it had been excellent - good sex is hard to come by, it appears. *sigh. Oh well. Off to here tonight: http://www.powderkegdiplomacy.co.uk/contact.html which does look v. exciting, if I was a bit less sleepy!